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Apologies for my disappearance...things have been rather rough since the last time I posted. I've lost several more loved ones and my Father's health started to severely decline in February, right after I lost yet another loved one to her long battle with Cancer. 

I've been struggling to keep the two part time jobs that I have, while driving a 44 year old Impala (Just paint the Supernatural Impala white and that's my Ellie) that's recently started showing her age... While also trying to take care of my Dad, which barely gives me any time to function.

Seeing as it appears I'll be stuck at home more often, I'll be able to sneak on here now and again to post my artistic goodness like I used to.

Hope everyone is doing well.

-Adieu
It's 6:22am and I have yet to sleep...that's what energy drinks+coffee will do to ya XD

I know it's been awhile since I've updated... And I've only uploaded a few things here and there, mostly because it's been...stressful. My Nuna (Grandma) became very sick, almost over night...and literally passed away just days before I was supposed to go out and see her in early October. She had developed Cancer...

I'm still...dunno, grieving I s'pose... We were pretty close...and I wasn't always able to just go and see her, seeing as she lived with my Mom and my Mom happens to live 2 hours away.

Also, I stopped comin' to DA prior to all that happening because I didn't get a Virus just once from the ads on here, but Twice. And the second time, I was forced to completely wipe the hard drive and reboot the computer. Sadly, I don't have proper upgrade discs so I'm limited to do certain things on here now which wasn't an issue before.

Allot'a personal things were happening too... I'm sure everyone's been going through their dry patches; not enough money, etc.

I guess it was just a rough year last year.

Hopefully you'll see more of me on here :)

Anyhoo, it's about 6:33am now and I'm still not tired...so I'm going to attempt to find something mindless to do so I can get tired and eventually get to sleep.

-Adieu-
  • Drinking: Water
  • Watching: Morning News
  • Drinking: Coffee
My body attempted to wake me at 7am...but I refused to pull myself awake until someone knocked on my door 30 mins later. Bad dreams still swirling through my head, the emotions fresh as I Zombie-walked into the bathroom for my morning ritual.

I finally got my first cup of coffee, my mood anything but cheery, and sat down to try and get myself to wake up.

Doing my usual rounds on the internet; checking emails and what not, I finally find myself here and see that I've managed to reach my 8,000 mark.

Wow...just the smallest thing has brought a smile to my face.

Now hopefully my body will match my brain in the waking up process and I'll finally be able to get muh shilly butt into a hot shower ^_^

Adieu
  • Watching: Babylon A.D.
  • Drinking: Water
Well my lovelies, I first want to apologize for my absence. Many things have been dancing through my life in a chaotic rhythm, which have been my distraction for the past few months, otherwise I would've updated much sooner.

As those of you may have noticed, I have uploaded a few things, but not as many as I would've liked to. For those that Enjoy my work, I want to say a very Big Thank You. I am humbled by how many truly do like my artwork, even if it is not as good as I would like it to be :)

I've also suffered a severe Creative block; in drawing, digital art & photo manipulation as well as writing. It's also been a struggle to enjoy the things that normally come naturally to me. I believe I have also suffered from a period of depression (Due to a few very negative things that have happened) and my brain tried in desperation to keep me sane by attempting to shut down my chaotic emotions so I could function. That numb state of mind we sometimes experience after something traumatic occurs and we're so overwhelmed we can do nothing more than observe the world in silence.

Even playing video games, that I truly enjoy because they take my mind off of everything...was a challenge. I had to force myself to try, otherwise I felt it was useless. Like I said...it's been a struggle.

Now, no more than 7 days 'til one of my absolute favorite Holidays of the year, I am feeling a great deal better^_^ And hopefully, will start creating again.

I'm still at odds with 'who' I'll be for Hallowe'en this year... Mostly due to lack of funds, which everyone is experiencing right now. But I think I'm going to go for a Fortune-Telling, Gypsy-like, Hippie. I've got the clothes and jewelry for it, so it should be easy to put together.

Alright muh lovelies, I shall now bid thee anon and hopefully have something new for you within the next few days. :love:

-Adieu
  • Listening to: the sounds of outside my window lol
  • Drinking: Red Gatorade
Well...wow lol I'd be a helluva lot more enthused if I weren't suffering some physical ailments at the moment.

*uses a teeny bit of strength to wiggle meakly* :dance:

I'm glad people are enjoying my work^_^ Again, I'm not amazing or anything...but I do enjoy creating interesting things and I'm kinda flattered that there are people out there that like it too :blush:

*sends hugs to everyone*

I'll try to create something as soon as I'm feelin' like me again :D

-Adieu
  • Listening to: 'Pardon Me'-Staind
  • Drinking: coffee
Dreams breaking against the shore of a sleepless mind... Without pause, they slither through the crevices of a spider web of thoughts; unwavering, relentless...a path that leads toward an endless oblivion... Salvations unspoken, outstretched hands seeking, begging...left to fall against a hollowed earth.

Lips cracked, tongue and teeth...attempting to speak but nothing comes. Eyes open, bloodshot and strained...searching the heavens for an answer...that will never come.

Silent whispers scattered along a chilling breeze. Violent waves, breaking against the land...vengeance dancing along their silken surface as chaos lies in wait just beneath.

I feel it inside me, shivering and alone...the child that was...unable to heal. The wounds too deep, the blood turned black...

Fading...

...What will I become?

-Adieu
  • Listening to: The Late, Late Show
  • Watching: Craig Ferguson :D
  • Eating: Hershey's 'Soecial' Dark Chocolate
  • Drinking: Water
Funny, I don't update until the next full moon. Well, the first day of a Five Day Cycle of her Fullness.

And yet again, I sit in the darkness...ambient noise of the sleeping surrounding me as My newest addition GIR (Part Maine Coon, Part Bengal) wanders the apartment with his big, curious eyes. Which means I'll be getting up shortly to stop him from once again, getting into something he shouldn't... Who also has the attention span of a grapefruit. *Chuckles* He does this in order to grasp my attention. *sighs* He's a year old, and I swear...is larger than my Eight year old Pez (I have the most interesting names for my animal family members lol) and is STILL growing as I write this.

I was gone for perhaps five days and when I came home he'd literally grown about two inches. I've seen Maine Coons and Bengals... They're Massive cats. So I've got a giant furry toddler on my hands...

...Oi...

So The Renaissance Faire is approaching and I'm gettin' rather...jazzed about it :D It's definitely something I look forward to at the beginning of every year. I'll once again be throwing on my Pirate Garb, getting into my Cheeky Pirate Onyx Persona... Out 'Jack Sparrowing' Men dressed as Jack Sparrow and having Many random people want to take my picture.

I'm excited ^_^

More so this year because I'll be dragging along some Faire Virgins. My Marco, My Krysten and Her Chris. And hopefully, I have enough extra garb for them to dress up in :D That way they don't feel too out of place when meeting my Faire Family (which consists of over 300 people) lol.

I also introduced Marco to Monty Python and The Holy Grail the other night...and could not stop giggling because he Also thought it was hysterical. Yet another reason why I'm so damned twitterpatted over him :love:

It's just Really awesome that the man I'm inlove with, has my goofy sense of humor and likes a great many things that I like. *smiles stupidly* He's awesomeness ;p

Alright...I'll shuttup now and try to do something creative...as in, maybe...write a short story about Sam and Dean Winchester's Doppelgangers...*grins*

We'll see ;)

-Adieu-
  • Drinking: Jasmine Green Tea
You ever have one of those days when the shit really hits the fan? When you've been planning several things, sure that due to planning said things at a good time (be that a month or so in advance) that everything would work out, only to find out that 'God' has a seriously fucked up sense of humor?

I'm okay...mostly. More calm than usual...which is a very good thing. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to keep my rage securely beneath the surface. Like a werewolf close to the skin, just at the edge of that dangerous line of tearing through, ready to take over all sense of humanity... I can feel my anger waiting there in anticipation...wanting to explode at any moment but held back by sheer will power.

Fun stuff. I'm not upset at anyone in particular...just the shittyness of the situation at hand. Thankfully, I'm in a good state of mind and am reminding myself that there is still room for something positive to emerge from this. And that's not just hopeful, or wishful thinking...I can sense it, so I'm not on edge with anxiety.

Shit happens and you've just gotta deal.

*sighs* I suppose it's the whole lack of control over this situation that really pisses me off. But I'm the kind of person that knows how to roll with it and not let it get me down.

Not everything's Black and White... And within all those various shades of gray... I can find just the one to make things smoother...even if it's just a little.

Because honestly, life...at least this one, is too god damned short to sweat the small stuff. Let it go, take a deep breath and look for the positive.

...well, easier said then done...but hey, practice makes perfect, no?

*smirks*

Adieu
  • Watching: The Fog remake...the Original is WAY better :P
  • Playing: ...with what's left of my Marbles :P
  • Eating: Nuffin :P
  • Drinking: Coffee Of Doom!! DOOM I SAY! It fills me with Goo
Things have been goin' pretty well... I've finally decided to start being more creative with my Paint Shop Pro Photo X2. Reason being that I've seen soo many beautiful and stunning creations that I was pretty much inspired to see if I could also, just maybe, create something even just a tad as good as what I've seen.

Finally made one...and was incredibly surprised at how good it turned out. After spending more than a few hours workin' on it (and having seen it so much I was sick of lookin' at it lol) I decided to stop editing it and finally loaded it on here. I'm really glad I did.

The thing is... When I do something creative (be that singing, acting, writing, drawing, dancing or any other artistic thing) I'm never sure if it's good enough. I'm extremely hard myself even when there's no reason to be. Perhaps that has to do with the influence of certain toxic people from my child hood that made me feel that everything and anything I ever did would never be good enough for them. And it doesn't help that I have a natural competitive streak.

But if I can't get passed my own hang-ups I'll never be happy with myself and I'll never allow myself to share my creative side. So I'm workin' on that emotional hiccup and am gently pushin' myself to do things creatively that in the past I would otherwise give up on because a tiny toxic voice in the back of my mind is tellin' me it will never be good enough.

Self psychology...fun stuff lol. But hey, it's cheaper then seeing a shrink, right? *chuckles*

So you'll probably be seeing a great deal more photo-manips due to my self healing thingy... And it's really fun to make them :D

There are soo many very talented photographers with amazing stock that I really don't know where to start! I have so many ideas it's nuts ;p

And I'm trying to make things that aren't as dark as my usual artwork. And maybe that has to do with the good influences I now have in my life (and I think being really twitterpated has softened me a great deal as well lol).

Anyhoo, I'm gonna shoosh now and start workin' on a new project. Wish me luck!

Adieu
  • Listening to: "Nightmare On My Street!"
  • Reading: Stephen King's NightShift: Short Story Collection
  • Playing: ...with what's left of my Marbles :P
  • Eating: Nuffin
  • Drinking: Coffee Of Doom!! DOOM I SAY! It fills me with Goo
Love is an interesting emotion... And I think I've only felt it once; the true heart wrenching soul-stealing kind. I thought I'd loved more than once...but thinking back on it now, it wasn't the aching, breathless kind.

This first real love and of whom I still love and he knows it, was in high school. We still love each other, doesn't matter where we go in life...it'll always be there. Even now that he's Married...I still have a place in his heart. And the same goes for him...

But now, what I'm experiencing...scares the hell outta me. It makes my heart wrench and pound, my lungs clench, my palms sweat and causes the fine hairs along my spine to bristle and stand on end. And every time I look into his soulful chocolate brown eyes... My face flushes; warmth spreading down my neck and into my chest... My heart flutters and I have to bite into my bottom lip and look away...as if straining to contain the emotions he stirs up within me when our eyes meet...

Just being with him or speaking to him puts me at ease... I love how we laugh at the same stupid things, have so many things in common. I'm incredibly drawn to him...in every way possible. His eyes, his smile, the sound of his voice and the laughter that bubbles up out of his powerful chest. He's incredibly strong as well... When I touch him, the boy is solid muscle. But he's so gentle...

Everything about him intrigues me. I feel like a moth to a flame in his presence. And from what he's told me, the feeling's mutual.

*sighs, shaking her head with a smile*

If love was a sickness...I'd say it's poisoned me.

It's been 10 years since I've felt this...strongly about someone.

Who knows...maybe this time, the flame I so badly need...won't singe and burn me.

-Adieu-
  • Listening to: Teeth-Lady Gaga
  • Reading: Stephen King's NightShift: Short Story Collection
  • Watching: Buffy Season 3 Episode 18: EarShot
  • Playing: ...with what's left of my Marbles :P
  • Eating: Nuffin
  • Drinking: Tea Of Doom!! DOOM I SAY! It fills me with Goo
Got over the sickness O doom. Had an AWESOME Halloween...and actually got to know someone at the end of September. It's kinda funny now that I think about it...

It's almost as though I had to make closure with that past someone who's in prison...oh and he never wrote me back, so I let it go. Let him go. Let the past go.

And then by total chance I met someone one night... Me and my friend were supposed to go to another place for Karaoke and apparently, he wasn't supposed to be there...the place we finally ended up. And even though I had made the decision to push men outta my life, we became friends...

And I started to realize how much I truly enjoyed spending time with him. Oh I tried to push him away. I came off as a bad ass, don't give two shits about anyone but myself, bitch...

Yet... He saw right through it.

He's incredibly genuine, has a wonderful personality, is very intelligent and very understanding. He makes me really laugh...and let me tell ya, he sure is nice to look at. He's got these soulful chocolate brown eyes with long dark eyelashes... An incredibly beautiful smile that makes me blush... Great Spirit help me, he makes me friggin' giggle! *facepalms*

I love hugging him... He's a big guy, but holy hell he's got Muscle! I mean...wow...

He's very strong but incredibly gentle around me. I also love that we're soo much alike. He's an amazing artist too. And has given me some tips on how to draw humans (because I suck at drawing them lol).

He drives a '77 Chevy El Camino named Katie...loves classic rock, thinks my '70 Four Door Hard Top Impala Eleanor is Gorgeous...and is actually A LOT like Sam Winchester... Weird, right? I didn't put those two together until just a week ago LMAO.

The only thing is...which isn't really a thing, just more funny than anything else... Well, he's younger than me. But let me just say, he's emotionally more mature than a LOT of guys I know. We're on the same level...and I'm so friggin' happy we're bestfriends...that just happen to kinda...well, we're Twitterpated over each other.

Twitterpated...watch Bambi and you'll understand my meaning ;)

-Adieu-
  • Listening to: Get Naked-Britney Spears
  • Reading: Finally Finished Stephen King's Christine.
  • Playing: With My Zomber Hampstees
  • Eating: Nuffin
  • Drinking: Tea Of Doom
I hate being sick...why? I haven't been THIS sick...in two years. I was sick back in April, I think it was April...but I bounced back quickly. This is the; Sweating like crazy, Aching all over, bones hurt, head hurts, lungs hurt, cold chills...hot flashes... The works. Stomach's okay thank the Great Spirit. That's all I need...vomiting like crazy when there's nothin' to vomit. Fun fun...not so much.

This is the third Day of it...hopefully it's done by next week. I have a strong immune system...and I'm extremely stubborn. I'm fightin' it...and when I'm sick, I'm not fun to be around. I get all kinds of mean and bitchy... Imagine Riddick goin' through some weird PMS...that's me LOL.

I hate being weak and physically unable to control this. I hate not having control. And I'm the most laid back person you could ever meet...kind of a walking contradiction.

I've been lookin' up Hannibal Barca who literally was the 'Father of Strategy'. Simply amazing. Vin Diesel's been workin' on a movie portrayel of this character for years now. Of course the studios have been dickin' him around (don't you just love the business?) which hasn't made it easy for him. I completely back him up because Hannibal Barca is a really kick ass Underdog. Hopefully the studios will pull their collective heads outta their ass' and help him out.

Oh and in other news, David Twohy has finally finished the first script in three? for Riddick. And it ain't gonna be that PG-13 bullshit...they're goin' back to R-rating just like in Pitch Black. I've been bitchin' for more than a few years now that they gotta do it right...and I'm glad I wasn't the only one that spoke up, because they heard us. 'Bout damned time.

So ya...bein' sick is just...fun...*growls and sips tea* I've been sleepin' like a Bear for the past three days...and this is the first time I've been up long enough to focus. Whoot.

I think I'm gonna scamper off and write a little Riddick FanFiction... Maybe make it comedic where he argues with a character based off of my personality about gettin' sick. I think that would be funny... I just hope I have the energy to do it lol.

-Adieu
  • Listening to: Behind Blue Eyes-The Who
  • Reading: Stephen King's CELL (for the 2nd time lol)
  • Watching: Millennium-Season Two-"Anamesis"
  • Playing: With My Zomber Hampstees
  • Eating: Nuffin
  • Drinking: Coffee :D
Wow...some very interesting things have happened in the last few days.

First I get a reply, and just as I feared, it was cold, harsh and hollow. But it wasn't just a simple, "I don't want anymore to do with you" he contradicted himself, leaving me an opening...

So I slept on it, spoke to very few, close people about his letter...and they were ALL STUNNED into SILENCE. To put if frankly, He came off as a condesending, egotistic, self-important Prick. And from where he's at, and where I'm at...He's got a lot of nerve.

No One, and I mean NO ONE, is Better Than Me. Period. I Will Not Tolerate Being Treated As Anything Less Than An Equal.

So I spent all day yesterday composing a response. Not a letter to say, "Well yer shtupid" no... It's possibly the most brilliant thing I've ever written. And it's going to be printed out, and sent today...which should get his way sometime next week.

If and I honestly mean this, IF he isn't completely blown away and put in his place... And doesn't send me a More Human reply...and just blows me off. He Doesn't Deserve Me.

So I went to sleep...around 4am...unable to go to sleep until this was all finished.

And before I woke...something...amazing happened.

I saw a Bald Eagle and ran toward it, calling out that "It's The Great Eagle!" And when I was just beneath this majestic creature... I don't know why, but I started Braying like a Hawk...calling out to this bird. I Saw the Sun high in the distance, early morning...and another Bald Eagle was further away, where the Original Bald Eagle was looking down at me...

But it started to change. It became massive, and turned it's head to that it's beak faced my Right...wings spread out on either side...LIKE A TOTEM...and It's EYE... I Was Terrified. As though I was literally Looking in the Eye of All Creation...and I was in terrified Awe.

The power of this creature, the way it suddenly transformed...and placed itself Against the Sun...

And Now here's the creepiest part...

I woke, blinking and went to fall back asleep...when I HEARD a RED TAIL HAWK Braying Sweetly Just Outside My Friggin' Window...

Needless to say, I was up.

Funny...how I wear an Eye Of Horus Medallion against my throat on a piece of black slik cord like a choker and NEVER take it off.

Something's happening...been having many signs thrown in my face... The Moon, The Sun, the #3...the Month October...

Heh...guess I chose the right path when I decided years ago to follow Animal Medicine...Shamanism...

-Adieu
  • Listening to: Kids playing in the backyard
  • Reading: Stephen King's CELL (for the 2nd time lol)
  • Watching: Angel, Season Five, Episode-9- 'Harm's Way'
  • Playing: My Zomber Hampstees
  • Eating: Reeses Crunchy Peanut Butter Cups ^_^
  • Drinking: Coffee :D
So obviously I've gotten over my little emotional crap thingy... I bounced back rather quickly this time...but the funny thing is, whatever flood gates I opened, remain open. And for the first time in YEARS I've been able to Write and Create things like I used to. Things that actually hold real emotion. Makes me happy^_^

Been doin' a lot of memory searching...remembering things I thought I'd forgotten. And you know what? It's been good for me...theraputic in a sense.

I sent off a letter on the 17th...and still nothing back. In my situation, I can't really get into the details (unless you know me then I don't have to explain) it's been three years since I've been able to reach out to him... I've also come to realize that it may take him awhile to get back to me Because I vanished from the face of the planet.

My Worst Fear is Him Not Responding, or If and When he Does...that he's cold, unfeeling and short in his reply.

My Hope is that he's somewhat happy to hear from me so we can start over again, reconstruct our friendship.

My brain is now letting it go so neither my fear nor my hope will cause me any unneeded anxiety. Just let it go and roll with it. Nice and calm like I approach everything else in my life. I had to teach myself this years ago, to calm myself... Because man, I was bad as a teenager. Too Impatient. But I've grown...least I like to think so lol.

And now I'm better...somewhat. One day at a time ;p
This just flat out sucks... I haven't slept in several days, too many things in my mind...twisting, turning...and jesus, my art-stuff must fuckin' suck...pardon my french.

I look at what I've enjoyed making, what I feel is interesting...and notice that it's not very popular, which much mean I must really suck. It almost makes me want to take everything down.

And it's not just here...

My stories on Supernatural on FF.Net... I get all these hits, but no one ever says much. Do I suck? I mean...wtf?

I've been exhausted emotionally and physically and it's basically starting to take it's tole on me. I don't even know why I try anymore...it almost seems pointless.

I'm not okay...and I haven't been for awhile. I put on a happy face, act all happy and what not when inside I'm basically falling apart. I just don't know what I should be doing anymore... I feel so damned lost.

I've been thinking too much lately too... And for some strange and screwed up reason I can't just write poetically like I used to. What the hell has happened to me? Where did I go?

*growls softly at her own stupidity*

I think I just need to finally get some sleep...and maybe I'll feel better...maybe...

-Adieu
  • Listening to: My Soul Shattering...
  • Reading: Stephen King's CELL (for the 2nd time lol)
  • Watching: The News...
  • Playing: What's left of my Sanity
  • Eating: bleep...
  • Drinking: Coffee, in a few minutes...
  • Reading: Stephen King's CELL (for the 2nd time lol)
  • Watching: Buffy-Season 6
  • Playing: ...With My Sanity...?
  • Eating: Frosted Mini Wheats
Stolen from :iconbullittblank:

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 movies on this list. Copy this list, go to your own journal, and paste. Then, put x's next to the movies you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun!

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane
Total: 9

(x) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 18

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 26

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 35

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 43

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(x) Universal Soldier
( ) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong
Total so far: 51

( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
( ) Flubber
Total so far: 58

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 64

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 74

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 85

(x) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 94

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
(x) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 105

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 119

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
( ) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castle
(x) Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 126

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 132


(x) BASEketball
(x) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
(x) Highlander
(x) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 138

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 142

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
(x) Phantasm
(x) Waterworld
Total so far: 148

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
(x) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 153

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
(x) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 161

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolution
(x) Animatrix
(x) Evil Dead
(x) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Final Total: 170

I guess I have no life... But here's the thing, I can probably list a WHOLE BUNCH MORE that I've seen that would really hike my score up lol

I just Love movies... So much better then watching dull TV...except for Supernatural, that's not Dull at all :D
  • Listening to: Stupid Girl-by Pink
  • Reading: Stephen King's CELL (for the 2nd time lol)
  • Playing: ...With My Sanity...?
  • Drinking: Water
So...I haven't written mostly because I haven't had the money to renew my account. So once again, I am but a humble deviant *chuckles*.

Lots of things that could be spoken of...due to the fact that a great deal has happened in the last...three months? Yes...three months...whoot...

Anyhoo, a lot of deaths...a lot of realizations. Things concerning the heart and what not. Mostly me realizing that I shouldn't date anyone for quite awhile.

I never give myself a real break. I'll admit that in the past, I would literally go from one relationship to the next without having at least a year in between to heal.

It's been six months and I haven't gotten into anything serious (whoot) lol. I did, date a wonderful young Marine who had to leave to Germany on the 20th (just four days ago) and he'll be there for 2 years. So it was casual, more like friends becoming best-friends. He's a big goofball and it was great having him in my life while he was here. It doesn't mean we won't speak, and I already miss the Sasquatch.

Yes, he's even taller then Sam Winchester. Sammy stands 6'4 and a half... Kurtis (my Marine) stands at 6'8. And I'm only 5'6 and a half LOL.

I like tall guys...is that a crime? *grins and lets out a soft chuckle while shaking her head*

He wasn't a rebound, it wasn't serious and if anything...he's a good friend that I hope is around for a long time.

To me, friends mean more then just a someone I'm 'dating'. And I cherish all of my friends because they are my Family. Or something...and shtuff...;p

Alright...enough of my ramblings. Take care my lovely Laydles and Jellyspoons!

-Adieu-

Zomber Hampstees...

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 15, 2009, 12:11 PM
  • Reading: Stephen King's CHRISTINE
  • Watching: Angel
  • Playing: My Sanity
  • Drinking: Coffee
"Hey See If They've Got Any Pie...Bring Me Some Pie!! I Looove Me Some Pie..."

Okay so an update...

Been hella busy with the Renaissance Faire and have been unable to post anything as of late. But by tonight, (hopefully) I'll get around to actually posting more on my Bad Whiskey Supernatural Story.

It's a very dark story, probably darker than anything I've written in a long time and I'm still working on it (a work in progress).

It's a part of my Whiskey Series which from what I've been told has become semi-popular with readers. That's what happens when I unleash my plot bunnies. I create a strange kind of chaos with whatever characters I'm writing about...especially in FanFiction.

Anyhoo... I gotta get goin'. Just thought to give everyone the heads up on how things are going and when I'll be posting more to my stories.

Adieu

"I Straight Up Swayzied That Mother!"

Grr...Arrg

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 3, 2009, 1:17 PM
  • Reading: Stephen King's CHRISTINE
  • Watching: X-Files, Season One, Episode Two: Deep Throat
  • Playing: My blades
  • Drinking: Water
"Did I.Q's just drop sharply while I was away?"

Got my Impala...she's home now with me. My big beautiful 350, 1970 Chevy named Eleanor (From The Haunting, Not Gone in 60 Seconds)...which means the ties have been officially severed between my Ex and I. The only thing that would bring us in close proximity would be his 13 year old son Dakota, as well as Dakota's Mom Dawn (I love both like family).

Having been with Nathan for almost three years, and having been blessed to know Dakota as if he were my own son... That's probably one the hardest things for me, emotionally now... And makes me realize how much I want to have a family. But I've got time yet, I'm only 25.

I'm also getting over a very nasty flu-like cold that took me out for several days. Thank the gods I'm a stubborn Polack (among the Italian, Slav, English, Welsh and other heritages I've got in my blood lol) because if I wasn't, I'd still be as sick as a dog. You know what? That is such a terrible term...sick as a dog. I mean what the hell? I shall have to rephrase that... I was a Zombie! There, much better...*smirks*

I got sick because I really over did it last weekend...and now, that I'm actually much better, I'm going to go back out to the same place I over did it and make damned sure I don't repeat what got me sick in the first place.

1) Had No Sleep
2) Barely Drank Any Water
3) Barely Ate
4) Mixed Alcohol
5) Didn't Wear Enough Layers

This time it'll only be one type alcohol (which never gives me problems) lots of water, keep a full stomach, and crash when I need to crash. And I'm wearing Many layers.

Oh and another thing...the person I was, before I met Nathan...is back. But with an edge. So when someone pisses me off, I'm not going to just walk away... They'll learn why I'm called a 'Wildcat'.

I haven't been able to post any new drawings due to not having a scanner anymore. But I'll try to keep up with my writing (for those wonderful few that have been reading my work, thank you...truly) I'll try to keep my stories updated.

On that note...I must bid thee farewell.

*waves*

"Game over, man! Game Over!"

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Journal Entry: Fri Feb 20, 2009, 8:14 PM
  • Reading: Stephen King's CHRISTINE
  • Watching: Sarah Conner Chronicles
  • Playing: ...with what's left of my sanity...
  • Drinking: Coffee
"Did I.Q's just drop sharply while I was away?"

Wow...4,000 page views...cool:)

Kinda neat...considering I haven't uploaded anything new in over a month...

But uhm...another update about my Cat, my Mickey...

On Valentine's Day... Saturday... We took him to the vet...and at exactly 12:30am... I watched as the vet put the needle into his little arm and felt his life slip away.

I've gone numb. Went through all the emotional up and downs...to why couldn't I have done more... To if I had more money I could have saved him... To I killed my Child... Yea, it hasn't been fun.

But I can feel him...especially last night, a cold presence against my leg, away from the window where there was no way there could've been a draft. *Smirks* And right now, again...it's that cold spot that tends to move, and it's not just cold...it's electric. My skin tingles and the hair bristles and stands on end...but it's a comforting presence, and it calms me down.

*a while later*

Wow...uhm...heh, when you think shit can't get any worse...it does. But that's life, right?

My very current ex, as in...we were together for almost three years and ended it a Month ago... Called me to let me know, that he's NOW dating someone...

At least he was man enough to call me...

I think I'm gonna go now...drink some coffee and just...deal with this.

"Game over, man! Game Over!"